Short Film

I may have mentioned before that I'm writing a "short" film (I'm not very good at short, my first draft of 4000 word English coursework last year was approximately 6,500 words long). I intend to at the very least have finished it before going to Uni in September, but ideally I want to have shot and edited it (that's not going to happen, but hopefully I'll have shot something). To finish writing a script means you have to actually write it, that would seem obvious, but I, until today, had not written a single word since the start of January at the latest (to be honest I think it was actually before Xmas).

I started writing again today in an attempt have done something because I want to do the list of housework my mum's left for me even less than I want to sit and write (it's kind of backwards, I like writing, but I never actually want to do it, even though I want to have it done). The other thing, the thing that really made me push my script from 16 to 19 pages (a whole three pages?! I am so fucking awesome!) is that I really don't want to think about the fact I have a job interview at TESCO tomorrow, so anything that can distract me from that is a good thing. I know getting a job would be good (job=money money=stuff stuff=happiness)and that I need to face all my anxiety and use my CBT techniques to help me, but I'm a coward and also incredibly insecure, and I hate meeting new people because I don't think they'll like me (I'm also incredibly arrogant and think that anyone who fails to like me is probably stupid, or bigoted or in some other way intrinsically flawed), that fact that I also don't like most people probably doesn't help matters either.

Anyhoo the point of this whole thing that all the preamble and many asides have been leading to is this: How can I write believable dialogue (and to a lesser extent any believable fiction) when I lack the life experience - I've only ever had one girlfriend who I've been with for three years, I don't know how people meet, or how they speak to each other; I barely leave my house so I have very few conversations that aren't with a very select group of people, I don't really socialise and I certainly don't drink (it's not some moral thing, I'm on medication, I certainly have drunk, but never really frequently and always with an element of awkwardness). Anyway writing screenplays is hard, they're aren't something you come across without several stages of removal so it can be quite difficult, technically, to convey a point without being long-winded and dull and having to re-iterate what you've already written, so instead of continuing I chose distract myself by writing this instead.